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is the song i am listening to right now. hehe. ♪
it's by After School- the girls in this group are so HOT.. i'm not really knowledgeable in korean groups of singers, but i like this song alot!! i love love love the rapping parts. korean girls who rap are so hot. i love.
사랑하지 말걸 그랬어 정주지 말걸 그랬어
붙잡지말걸 그랬어 왜 이렇게 나 혼자 아파
i love singing to this, i will memorize it. hahaha.

but yeah..just came back home from white windmill talking to april for 4 hours- just catching up and stuff & FROYO. mm. i LOVE froyo..but i forgot to take pictures. siighh. :(
meeting up with old faces..is refreshing.

this was at bucca for my 18th birthday.
GOSH, april got so pretty. love this girl- so silly. haha.
catching up is good. :)

but yeah..just found out my sister got in a car accident...
Thank God her and angela are safe..and not hurt.
but poor MDX- umma won't have a car for a while. sigh..
아이고..못살아...

I feel like this is something..definately something I need to pray about.
will do.

--Anyway,
so yesterday which was the first day of 2010, the EM college had a lock-in.
it was really fun, even though the games were really..ridiculously silly. hahaha.
i really hope that the college group will become less...divided??
yeah.
TODAY at praise practice, pastor brendon asked me- forced me- to sing for tomorrows service.I wasn't nervous during the practice, but i know that i will be anxious tomorrow..in front of many people.
OH MY GOODNESS. this is crazy. i have never sang for praise team..i am not good. :(
gosh i need to have more confidence in myself, but i know i am not that good...gosh. im nervous..i dont want to sing..FML.

i must not think about what others think.
this is praise. yes...
but it's so hard not to be nervous!! :(

GOD BE WITH ME!!